It's been three years since the world fell out from underneath me, and my brain still ain't right. I have over half a dozen unfinished drafts sitting in my newsletter folder from when I've tried to send something like this out before.
So, yeah. It's been a rough few years.
Of course, there have been good things that happened, too.
But I ain't gonna lie. I'm still struggling. No matter how much I want to be, I'm still not in the right frame of mind to come back and care for people, to be in a place of service. (Y'all, this mental health stuff is hard. Ugh.)
So I'm following instructions and putting on my own life vest first. I'm doing the work as best I can, trying to figure out what post-pandemic life is going to look like. It's time to start setting intentions.
I wish I had better news, but I'm not there yet. Fans of Dr. Who will recognize the line about time being a "big ball of wibbly wobbly stuff"; turns out the pink goo in your noggin can be described similarly. *sigh*
At least I no longer feel like I'm frozen in suspended animation. Going into winter dormancy, perhaps, but doing so deliberately and with purpose. Holding space. Germinating.
We'll see what the future will bring.
So, yeah. It's been a rough few years.
Of course, there have been good things that happened, too.
But I ain't gonna lie. I'm still struggling. No matter how much I want to be, I'm still not in the right frame of mind to come back and care for people, to be in a place of service. (Y'all, this mental health stuff is hard. Ugh.)
So I'm following instructions and putting on my own life vest first. I'm doing the work as best I can, trying to figure out what post-pandemic life is going to look like. It's time to start setting intentions.
I wish I had better news, but I'm not there yet. Fans of Dr. Who will recognize the line about time being a "big ball of wibbly wobbly stuff"; turns out the pink goo in your noggin can be described similarly. *sigh*
At least I no longer feel like I'm frozen in suspended animation. Going into winter dormancy, perhaps, but doing so deliberately and with purpose. Holding space. Germinating.
We'll see what the future will bring.